Still not okay.

Following on from a recent post, & despite some light relief this week I continue to feel lower than I’ve ever been. Seems a tally chart doesn’t fix everything. I mean I didn’t have a shower yesterday soooo I guess that could be the culprit. Thought I could get away with having two today, didn’t…

Survival Strategy 1.0

Right you might have noticed I’ve been a bit angry. You might be too. I’ve genuinely questioned how to go on & function in this new reality but I’ve had my pity party, now we strategize. Since my white fragility got smashed to smithereens & I’m now wide awake to the world we actually inhabit,…

A Smile a Day…

>>>>>> FOR A POSITIVITY UPDATE 9 HOURS LATER CLICK HERE<<<<<< Today was an unexpectedly emotional day. I know, call me crazy but I was not expecting the 75th anniversary of millions of people giving up their lives for our freedom to stir up any emotion… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The Captain Tom Moore montages, the veterans, the spitfires,…

Tedium: Day 37-41

The sun is ablaze once more & I tuck into some Tesco goodies on the balcony of dreams. My birthday has reawakened some long dormant junk food cravings so its pizza & rocky road for breakfast. I also might be comfort eating as a result of a heinous act the night before when I was…

Comedown: Day 29-34

Quiteish week, still in the throes of birthday comedown. Probably didn’t mention it previously but it was my birthday last week! Honestly I loved it so much I’ve spent many a happy moment dwelling on it since & even created a Lockdown Birthday Guide 101 to aid & abet Taureans with upcoming celebrations. Whether hour…

VLOG SPECIAL: Day 14-20

And just like that its been a whole week since I last updated this diary! WOW. Perhaps that old adage time flies when you are having fun needs a rework. Or maybe, just maybe I’m having fun over here; thinly veiled as out & out reach for your flamingo hat boredom…. Sooooo for your viewing…

A meme a day… : Day 13

Too many memes, too many many memes…. Right, I’ll be blowed I’ve only actually gone & had what at least felt like a productive day. I can’t be entirely sure of quality of output but words were indeed written, seemingly into sentences. Furthermore I observed the recognised minimum standards of hygiene by brushing teeth AND…

Garage girl: Day 10-12

Its unlikely anyone has noticed my absence this past weekend but if so please accept my apologies. I gave myself the day off only for it to become 2 without even noticing in all honesty. Days bear little resemblance to the norm & since upgrading my neck crick to pinched nerve status I’ve been sleeping…

T.E.S.C.O : Day 9

Supa dupa late with this post. Yesterday was manic. Quarantine manic mind not normal manic. Somehow I managed to make one small task last an entire day. Skills. Woke up pretty early after a horrible dream where I was locked out of school completely starkers which left me feeling quite disturbed on awakening. Probably something…

SOS : Day 8

Genuinely knackered. Have pretty much replaced all walking with dancing & am utterly spent. Going to bed early, meaning hopefully before midnight, to try adjust this damn jetlag overhang. Today in a series of bullets I cooked. Oh my giddy aunt. Finally! Did it as soon as I got up to get it out the…

Hola Barry: Day 7

Got up sub noon for first time today at 10.45 am & felt undeservedly like an absolute hero. C’mon Jadey!! So much so, I for some reason felt it desirable & indeed necessary, despite the minimum 3 week house-arrest, to attack all items on my to-do list simultaneously. At one point I had one call…

Cocoon: Day 5

Feeling genuine disgust with myself. I am able bodied, I am healthy & I have nothing but free time. Sure I am doing my bit by staying indoors & isolating but I am not actively helping. Today my friend Miriam posted an NHS job advert in a group chat for temporary admin services at Addenbrookes…